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Emptying Big Girtha’s storage, scooting 12 miles
Well here we go: I’m blogging again. At least for today.
Now that I think my blog system is in roughly the shape I want to use for the next long term, I can create new posts without worrying about adding to the pile I need to migrate. But really I still have that problem, because I haven’t worked out how exactly I want to structure the source Markdown files and image folders. But that needn’t concern us today.
Speaking of finger pain, and other stuff
Despite the horrid reviews on Amazon, I just bought Dragon Professional Individual for Mac V6 mostly due to a minor but recurring finger pain. I have mostly been having issues with my right hand, particularly my thumb and pointer finger. I sometimes notice it when I have been clicking a …
2017-06-30
I set my alarm for 8 a.m. but struggled to get up then. I shouldn’t have set an alarm, for I hit snooze every seven minutes for two hours and I’m quite tired now. I made tea and three eggs and sat down to work, though I …
Contemplating another birthday
This morning federal agents detained someone close to me. His continuous employment and clean record since entering many years ago were not enough to make his illegal entrances legal.
Also today, two housemates moved out, too soon to count them close to me. Mysterious towings and a neighbor shouting “We don’t want any n_____s around here!” may have contributed. This is San Francisco? More directly, derelict landlords apparently let avarice supersede fostering relationships. Yes, this is San Francisco!
Another tracker dies
Darkest before dawn
I know now I cannot sleep. I probably knew before, but I tried getting lost in music, vaguely hoping my consciousness be released. Trying to get lost is something I am not well equipped to handle, at any rate. I know exactly where I am. The vibrations in my earphones, captivating as they seem, somehow serve only to bring my thoughts into sharper focus. I can no longer contain my mind; the thoughts burst out, and I must write, lest I lose all hope of honoring them, of honoring myself. I am being haunted by the breaking heart of the woman who used to own my house, and I think that is why I must depart.
2016-08-16, 17, 18
2016-08-16
13:00
Assess string LED lights and the big fur coat.
14:00
Start attaching LEDs to big fur coat.
18:00
Wiring LEDs is done. Now eating some dinner (curry and rice Yizhen made me, some spinach Yizhen bought for me, and some chicken I made from Derek …
My tongue
I have a new inflamed tastebud, but thankfully the one I got yesterday is mostly better now. I haven’t had any for a while (weeks? months?), but I do remember having three at once sometime this year. I had been getting them somewhat frequently, but they did definitely heal, so I was at least pretty sure it was due to something I did periodically, not every day. Is it spicy food? I’m not sure, but that’s what I tell myself.
Log: 2016-08-09
10:00
Woke up, late, and still a bit tired.
11:20
Called to get food card reactivated. Have more than $400 to use, thankfully. Went to Falletti for groceries while Alan got coffee at Oak Cafe. I spent $94 on mostly vegetables, milk and some fermented things, aiming to …
Log: 2016-08-08
8:06
Forcing myself to get up at the time I set my Fitbit to vibrate (8:00 and then 8:06 and 8:09). I used to set the Fitbit and my phone, but I realized last night I could just set multiple Fitbit alarms (necessary since it does …
Delaying running, putzing with website
I had trouble getting out of bed this morning, as I planned to go for an 18 mile run, but wanted to wait till I pooped. I had some Greek yogurt and honey, and then a granola bar, and after a couple of hours, I still couldn’t go.
I …
Mania de junio
A month ago I wrote a sort of history of my years of friendship with someone suffering with manic bipolar disorder. I concluded “Mania de Mayo” with a comment on my tiredness and a hopefully sarcastic comment about the type of friend I am. Not much good has happened since then regarding my friend, it seems to me, and his new friends along with some old are now organizing for a possible impending psychotic episode.
Mania de mayo
I haven’t written much for a few weeks, but I’m still here. I’ve mostly been trying to focus on the programming projects and not worry about the brain exercises and other tasks, hoping this would be temporary, and soon I could get back to progressing on everything. But of course I have had diversions, both intentional and unexpected. This month my mind has been on relationships. First, romantic ones, and then for the past ten days, on a friend in need. It is on the latter I now write.
Hillary and Bernie
This is just a quick note for future reference. A few friends shared the Medium piece “On Becoming Anti-Bernie” (PDF) by Robin Alperstein. I only read the first few pages, but that much of it basically reflects my sentiment: I love that Bernie is proving many Americans have a strong …
Taxes done, happy birthday Brad
Today I woke up later than hoped as usual, but not super late: 10:30ish. Brad broke up and went to work before 8, and I hope to pick it up at that time also, but when I finally went to bed around 2 I was still quite awake and …
Set trials
Periodically timing myself playing the card game Set.
Finding 10 sets: Count 13x3 cards, starting timing before laying out 12 cards, stop timing after first set found after only 12 cards remain table. If 1 minute passes without set, add three cards.
2016-03-16: 13:40, 5:57, 13:20, 6 …
First stabs at moving on
I’ve been spending a lot of time with or thinking about my ex these past few months, so perhaps it isn’t so strange I’ve felt myself falling more and more for him, despite having broken up nearly a year and a half ago.
Dad’s Christmas at Mom’s
Tonight we had the first of two annual Christmas celebrations, though this year both will be held in the same house.
Week in review: drugs, overtime and genetics
This week involved not much more than working 56 hours (unusual), though it was at least in the company of my dog, Vera, since her new owner was out of town.
Work has been pretty crazy lately, as two of my large clients are undergoing migrations and redesigns. One of those launched this week, which went pretty smoothly, but just took a lot of time I didn’t have. The other has a lot of work left, but I hopefully finished most of my role and provided enough documentation for others on my team to fill in the gaps. Time will tell, there. As for me, I supposedly have off two days next week in exchange for the overtime this week, and I am already planning to take off the entire following week to get caught up on personal stuff.
I almost forgot to get a new Adderall prescription this week. I am prescribed one 25mg capsule daily, but because amphetamines are Schedule II drugs, it is somewhat inconvenient to actually obtain what I am prescribed. For most drugs, I can get 90 day prescriptions automatically filled by the mail order pharmacy my insurance uses, OptumRx. The two drugs I take, however, aren’t so easy. (Truvada as PrEP is a story for another time.)
Remember to turn off the AC
I’ve been at William’s for about four days so far, two nights of which he was away for work. We haven’t interacted a ton other than to laze about Sunday night and last night, watching some Modern Family and Big Bang Theory yesterday and a couple of movies about India Sunday. He did take me to a nice Chinese restaurant Sunday, and we ordered McDonald’s once and Pizza Hut once.
Thoughts on high
Random notes I sent myself while not sober.
Messy start to 2015
I’m on a Greyhound bus returning to Milwaukee from visiting my ex in Chicago. This time, I boarded first, and I have plenty of room to sprawl and use my laptop. There are apparently only about 20 people on the bus, and everyone has two seats. The last bus …
Japan raves, too, but with fewer drugs
This got me researching later about the party scene in Tokyo. I found many forums with accounts of people doing drugs – specifically, ecstasy or (the better) pure MDMA, which is called "Molly" in the states and "Mandy" in the UK. The general situation in Japan seems to be:
* Japan is one of the strictest countries regarding drug laws, and quantity or intent matter not
* Drugs that do exist here are therefore much more expensive than elsewhere (“The street price of a gram of cannabis weed was $58.30 in 2005, over twice as much as in the next most expensive nation, Australia.”)
* People don't talk about drugs even if they do them. Similar to elsewhere, but more severe. Apparently many of the population are extremely sensitive about this, due to what I can only imagine is an ingrained sense that breaking rules is wrong (“unconscionable”) and you cannot question the rule's basis. If you even mention drugs, people will stop talking to you and you'll have no friends.
Booked Thailand and a bunch of overdue medical visits
I’ve been busy catching up on personal stuff since returning from Burning Man.
First, I finally located a primary care doctor in San Francisco.
I’ve been putting it off because I didn’t want to deal with scheduling appointments and figuring out how much it would cost me …
First night out with Derek after five months of friendship
Last night Derek invited me to go out with him and some friends from LA. I wasn’t going to, but agreed around 11 p.m. to meet him out. I was more inclined to go because he was presently alone at the bar, so I could meet him first …
My ancestry composition according to 23andme
Stop taking naps
I need to stop taking naps midday. Or stop being tired midday. Or something. But I hate just getting to work in the afternoon! When I could be almost done for the day!
I started using the app Sleep Cycle last night. We’ll see.
Out of control
I've been a slight mess of late. Not unprovoked, but I could certainly stand to take a deep breath and reassess more frequently.
Wednesday I was again expecting to do dinner and maybe a movie and spend the night with the guy I like. After hours of (infrequent on his part) text message exchanges, he basically changed his mind about wanting to hang out. And of course the whole night I didn't commit to anything else, including getting any real work done. So the result was a sad, disappointed and unproductive Charlie.
Travel ‘plans’ up in the air, like Bo’s hair
We got a pretty big (historic, I guess) snow storm Wednesday, dumping about 20 inches of snow on Milwaukee.
Strange things are happening
I have been quite unproductive during the last two weeks... but I've also been hanging out with the new friend almost daily. I'll just briefly recapitulate the recent happenings, as I need to eat, shower and get ready to maybe go to Madison soon.
Closing out 2010 in style, bringing in 2011 as an emotional mess. Whoop whoop!
What a weekend! I had been hoping to get to Chicago for New Year's, but it was unclear I'd have anyone to stay with or even go out with until the late afternoon New Year's eve. I was unsuccessful in locating a friend to crash with, after asking a dozen people almost, so it was looking like I wouldn't do much.
A toast to friendship
Zach G: what did you end up doing?
Charlie Gorichanaz: well as you know, i was planning to go out with michael and you, if not at my place, then wherever... and then plan b.
Charlie Gorichanaz: and as you know, both of you went with manoel. and as you know, i got ready and sat drinking by myself... because you told me i was more than welcome to use your car to pathetically go to plan b solo
Charlie Gorichanaz: and as you know, you didn't respond to any of my texts or answer when i called
Charlie Gorichanaz: so as you could probably deduce, i sat alone, all night
Reaffirmation time
Notwithstanding my too frequent proclivity toward drama, I love everyone in my life. Each adds assets, be they companionship, comfort or wisdom. Henceforth, I will try much harder to let permeate peace and happiness.
The booby trap and the blatherskite
Emotional drama: the greatest waste of time and energy.
People spend so much time thinking about what people are thinking about them, when everybody should really be conquering homework, nurturing friendships and growing beautiful flowers. I have seen so much pain and suffering lately, both of which have been completely unnecessary and unfounded.
Dyan, my friend, where art thou?
I really miss my good friend Dyan. When I came to Madison, I left her in Menomonee Falls so she could take care of my Subway. I'm hoping to come home in two weeks, and perhaps I will see her.
Message to Eric
Arg, so many thoughts through my mind!!!
First of all, Tim B and I have been talking a lot and hanging out a lot lately, which is good -- because I obviously want to be his friend. This has also reminded me that I really wouldn't mind if Tim "wanted me back"... so conflictive! It still seems like it would be quite a while before that would possibly happen, though, anyway.
New guy, old guy
It's been an interesting week.
I have exchanged many messages on Facebook with a new friend, Eric. Apparently I've never seen him or heard of him before, despite the smallness of Wisconsin's gay community. He's a junior studying biochemistry, which is pretty much what I want to do. He doesn't want to go to med school, though. He's also short and quite attractive. :-)
Good thing roller coasters don’t derail
In other news, I decided I need to be more optimistic, more understanding, more attentive, more caring, and more worry-free. I have not been any of those things lately, which put me -- and those about whom I most care -- through many a hardship. You live, you learn. This is a new beginning.
Bubbles is four!
THIS ENTRY IS NOT YET FINISHED
Spring 2007 schedule
After much distress, I have settled on a schedule for next semester, more or less.
I decided to take an interdisciplinary course on Russia after I learned that first-semester Russian would not be offered this spring. Unfortunately, by the time I got to enroll, the class was full! I then …
It’s snowing pretty hard!
Well, it’s not snowing that hard, but with much more vigor than we’ve seen this year thus far.
Here’s a wonderful idea to warm you up
I successfully woke up four hours early to do homework! So I’m gonna get back to that…
The shit that somewhat ceased to stink
Well, it's Sunday! I just got back from getting groceries and going to lunch with my mother and my five youngest siblings - but that's not what I want to talk about.
Last night Justin V invited me to dinner. We went to Wasabi on State St., and it was officially my first time having Japanese cuisine. I think I had something called..., um, nevermind, I forgot. Anyway, it was shrimp, vegetables and rice, with a side of Me-something soup. Interesting spoons are used in such places, too. I spilled a bit...
After that, we were about to go to the Badger Herald party at Taylor H's apartment, but we first visited Justin's friend Lauren's party upon receiving her phone call. That was interesting - I saw a few of her friends, including Chong L and her boyfriend Matt U...
And everything goes to shit again
I really miss Dyan. Here are my latest crazy antics:
Dion W: I don’t understand how you can want to talk to me one second and then not the next. This has nothing to do with you being an asshole…no one has ever called you that. You’re …
As the burdens lift…
Well, this week is finally over, almost. I have a chemistry assignment that was due at 5 p.m., but I didn’t finish it - so I’m going to work on it after this and hopefully turn it in this morning. This weekend I have to study for math …
Roommates + bois = trouble [continued]
Note to readers: this entry is basically a continuation of an earlier entry from a week ago. Please familiarize yourself with the other entry before proceeding! Thanks!
I am currently having an email conversation with Dion, which I will transcribe below when it’s complete. Below that is the AIM …
Roommates + bois = trouble
This week has been pretty nuts.
An online friend, Travis Bjorklund, messaged me two weeks ago stating that his parents were going to charge him rent, so he was either going to move to Madison or back to Florida. I told him that he was welcome to come live with …
MovableType!
Well, after many hours of work, I am pretty much done installing Movable Type! In fact, you are looking at it right now!
Upcoming changes…
I have been tinkering a bit lately, and I think I am going to change this blog from Nucleus CMS to Movable Type. I just need to figure out how to export everything properly…
I’m very disappointed with myself this weekend - last weekend I got no homework done, but …
First ‘night out,’ Badger game, and college job
Hey! This is going to be a very quickly-written entry because I’m trying to finish some straightening before I leave for work…
Last week was somewhat stressful - not because I had a TON of homework, but because the homework I did have seemed to take forever to complete! I …
Undergraduate Neuroscience Society
I’m joining it.
Whew! Day 1: conquered!
6:20; Wake up, change alarm to 6:35
6:35; Wake up, take shower
6:57; Call Melissa Zehner to be sure she’s up. She’s muy tired-sounding. Aww.
7:00; Sit down and figure out what classes I have and where I’m going. Look for clothes …
School starts tomorrow
College is finally here…and I’m totally not ready.
I’ve got a kitchen table, chairs, and counter completely stacked with groceries… $450 worth actually. I went home over the weekend to babysit and go to Six Flags Great America with the family… except Ben didn’t go… but …
Braces off!
Finally, after nearly four years, my braces have been removed. My teeth feel weird, smooth, and look huge. I am now to wear a rubber tooth positioner four hours a day until further notice. No retainer. Yay!
4 a.m. Sunday morning
It’s been a while since I’ve actually written a blog entry… I like to do the picture thing so that people don’t get bored, but once in a while I should actually write - so that, some time in the future, I can look back and think, “Gee …
Adding lots of old content…
As I get to it, I’ll be adding lots and lots of very old journals, chats, poems, etc. Stay tuned (as if you are actually reading this)
Also, I’m testing the image uploader:Click for image? Maybe?
The day I met a boy and puked
I’m sorry about skipping the last two months pretty much, but I don’t really feel like trying to think what all happened…
While I was at work on Thursday, my dad called to let me know that he was fine with my being gay, but he said we …
It all might just pass me by
I need inspiration. I feel like I might very well be inspired, but when I try to draw from that inspiration and create poetry, it fails to impress my peers. Perhaps I should instead channel that energy into art, for visually I am inclined, and fear of acceptance and appreciation …
‘I need help,’ a message to Matt
I need help.
I am lost.
I’ll start with Valentine’s Day.
The day before, I bought a dozen roses for 20 bucks and a bunch of candles and little things and put them in a nice gift bag. I gave them to Heather on Valentine’s…and she …
High school chat about homos
Charlie: alan
Charlie: how r u
Alan: fine, y tu
Charlie: pretty good
Charlie: im having issues
Charlie: with my girlfriend
Charlie: but im alright
Alan: what happened?
Charlie: long long story are you really interested
Alan: i enjoy long stories
Charlie: oh boy i’ve being chatting for 7 …
Hello Matthew
Hello Matthew. Erase the last email I sent, and continue replying from this one. I will try to remember some of what I typed before.
I feel so terrible about that email. I spent so long working on it. What a waste. I poured out all of my thoughts and …
Who am I?
I am me! I’m also a scientist minded software engineer who loves reading, running, listening to music, and recording photos and videos and data of all sorts. After earning a biochemistry degree, I lived in San Francisco and Tokyo, and now I find it difficult to stay put. Read more about me and my online life.
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The Campaign Trail
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SF: 87% complete; Oakland: 27%
San Francisco Bay Area running progress
Charlie says: “What a wonderful region!”
30 November 2022
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In-N-Out Burger (Fast Food Restaurant)
333 Jefferson St , San Francisco , CA
Charlie says: “It was super hot and we got a taste for salty fries, but by the time we walked there it dropped 35° and was cold. Still tasted good!”
28 September 2020 at 20:32
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Taqueria Zorro (Mexican Restaurant)
308 Columbus Ave , San Francisco , CA
Charlie says: “Restaurants are hoppin’ around here, feels weird.”
26 September 2020 at 19:42
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碼頭老火鍋 (Hotpot Restaurant)
仁愛路四段409-1號 , Da’an District , T’ai-pei Shih
Charlie says: “Delicious spicy hot pot with Harry. I am so full!!”
25 March 2020 at 08:40
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桶好呷滷味 (Asian Restaurant)
, Taipei
Charlie says: “We pick a representative set of ingredients and they build out the rest into a braised soup like thing over noodles.”
23 March 2020 at 06:46
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Addiction Aquatic Development (上引水產) (Fish Market)
民族東路410巷2弄18號 , Taipei
Charlie says: “Standing sushi bar at a fish market.”
21 March 2020 at 07:03
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ACME Breakfast CLUB (Breakfast Spot)
3F., No. 10, Ln. 27, Chengdu Rd., , Taipei
Charlie says: “Brunch w/ Shawn! Was tempted to get the avocado toast kind of as a joke since I never get it in SF, but resisted, sourdough was good. :-)”
20 March 2020 at 22:27
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三甲和風創意料理 (Japanese Restaurant)
Charlie says: “Late dinner with Shawn, at a lovely place!”
20 March 2020 at 09:28
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中央藝文公園 Central Culture Park (Park)
北平東路與紹興北街口 , Taipei
Charlie says: “Social distance.”
20 March 2020 at 03:42
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虎頭山環保公園 (Scenic Lookout)
Charlie says: “Exploring the hillside in Taoyuan City.”
14 March 2020 at 23:49
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Abura-Ya (Japanese Restaurant)
362 17th St , Oakland , CA
Charlie says: “Dinner with Beam before Sarah McLachlan!”
24 February 2020 at 18:55
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Ramen Yamadaya (Ramen Restaurant)
1728 Buchanan St , San Francisco , CA
Charlie says: “Dinner with John and Alan”
04 January 2020 at 19:19
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Taraval Okazu Ya Restaurant (Sushi Restaurant)
1735 Taraval St , San Francisco , CA
Charlie says: “Dinner with Alan and Emre”
28 December 2019 at 21:59
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Tselogs (Filipino Restaurant)
11B San Pedro Rd , Daly City , CA
Charlie says: “John wanted to take me to a Filipino place. It was a quiet night but good food!”
30 November 2019 at 17:43
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Golden Gate Bridge (Bridge)
Golden Gate Brg S , San Francisco , CA
Charlie says: “Visiting the bridge with Jay, whom I have not seen in years. Time flies when you don’t slow it down.”
16 November 2019 at 16:22
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Buckhorn Grill (BBQ Joint)
619 Market St , San Francisco , CA
Charlie says: “Dinner with Beam! And needed somewhere I can pull out my laptop since I'm on call today and it's been a bit crazy.”
19 September 2019 at 18:54
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Tank Hill Park (Park)
Clarendon Ave , San Francisco , CA
23 June 2019 at 19:26
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Cafe Bavaria (German Restaurant)
7700 Harwood Ave , Wauwatosa , WI
Charlie says: “Nice puffy pot pie dinner with Tim and Mom”
19 June 2019 at 16:50
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Spring Shabu Shabu (Hotpot Restaurant)
, Boston , MA
Charlie says: “Delicious last night in Boston!”
14 June 2019 at 19:14
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Taiyaki NYC - Boston (Ice Cream Shop)
119 Seaport Blvd Ste B , Boston , MA
Charlie says: “Post team lunch snack.”
12 June 2019 at 10:11
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Aceituna Grill (Mediterranean Restaurant)
57 Boston Wharf Rd , Boston , MA
Charlie says: “Falafel plate with tabbouleh and moussaka”
11 June 2019 at 09:35
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Twin Peaks Summit (Hill)
100 Christmas Tree Point Rd , San Francisco , CA
Charlie says: “#walkSF to work day!”
10 April 2019 at 08:51